Mock turtle neck top
Topshop bubble skirt
Zara leopard print pony hair flats
Mac "Captive" lipstick
When I was in high school, a classmate told me something that changed the way I presented myself. It was the first week of our freshman year. At start of one of our classes, he asked me, "Why do you always look so angry?" Confused, I didn't say anything at first. I shrugged and replied, "I'm not angry..." But he was very persistent. He kept trying to figure out why I wouldn't ever smile. I kept trying to explain to him that I was a happy person and that I simply chose not to smile. But the more I tried to convince him, the more I realized how right he was (and how ridiculous my side of the argument was).
The truth was, I was too busy trying to look cool. I thought if I smiled too much, I would look like a goofball or something. "You should smile more," he told me.
That conversation haunted me. It was not the first time I'd heard someone tell me that I needed to smile more. But the fact that this kid made a point to tell me this before we even got to know each other made me realize the importance of smiling. It sounds so silly to think about it now because I love to smile. It's contagious. And it makes me feel good to do it.
So when I catch myself looking a little too serious in my photos, it reminds me of that time in high school when I was confronted about my non-smile. It also makes me think of a friendship that blossomed out of it.
This is why I kind of regret not smiling more in these photographs. Most of these were test shots. I wasn't expecting to keep the majority of these. But perhaps I need to smile even more so...especially during the test shots. You just never know when it will "count." :)